New Book - Scene 6

I'm beginning to nail this book down. I had a major breakthrough this weekend, the one thing that was holding me back, and now I am knee -deep in a book I am starting to really love, and a character I am starting to love.

Riley was a tough one to grab a hold of. She's changed since when I started this. Usually, my characters are the first to come at me - loud and in charge. The story somewhat follows. Riley came, shyly and a bit sad... a woman with a huge hole in her heart.

But she didn't sit well with me. After the snappiness of Babs, Riley seemed too depressing. I wanted her to be more upbeat and fun to hang out with day after day. But to do that brought complications to the plot I wasn't ready to dive in to.

For a while it seemed she could be depressing and sympathetic, or fun but hate-able. I didn't like either option.

I kept writing. Rewriting. I think I now have four or five first chapters, as well as other snippets of other scenes in the book. And I finally found her.

It was the kind of WOW moment I really needed. Defining her - and a huge event in her life - has redefined the book into something WOW. It's the kind of thing I lay awake at night thinking, "I can't believe I thought of this! This is it!"

Getting over that hump was hard. But it wasn't going to come if I didn't sit down and write, even not knowing where I was going. I had to write - a lot of crap, actually - to get to the gem. But now that I'm there, I feel like I'm back in it. I'm where I belong.

I've found another song that fits so well. It's another one for John, who has become a much larger - and at the same time smaller - piece of this puzzle. He is the key that will tie it all together.

If he could sing - I think this is what he'd sing to her.

I'm leaving but don't worry 
I'll be back again
You're always right here

And you're grieving but don't hurry to your pack of friends
I'll stay 
It's clear

The one you knew from your love 
I grew into complete and whole 
And the way I justify
It's my way to control love everlasting 

I see your sweater rests upon your bed 
Reminds me of home

It can't be any better than it is in my head 
I'm blinded by roam

The one you knew from your love 
I grew into complete and whole 
Ad the way I justify 
It's my way to control 

There's only one way I know how to do this 
Stay here and help me live through this and I'll always be 

The one you knew from your love 
I grew into complete and whole 
And the way I justify 
It's my way to control love everlasting